a letter

dear friend,

so here's how is all started. you were the best thing that ever happened to me. you were the reason i woke up everyday with a smile on my face. the reason why i enjoyed going to school. whenever i saw you, i smiled. whenever someone said your name, my heart leaped.  i always knew that people changed. but i told myself you'd be different. we'd be inseparable. and who knows, maybe we'd be something more one day, and that was more than okay with me.

dear friend,

oh. i see you're hanging out with them. why? didn't you used to be different? it's okay, i respect who you are and who you hang out with. not any of my business anyway. but why are you acting strange? its not you, and i don't like it.

dear friend,

why are we fighting like this? it was a joke at first i guess. but now it's not funny. why are you being so arrogant? take a look at this from my point of view for a change. how would you feel if barely knew someone who used to mean so much to you? please stop changing. i hate change. change means moving on, and moving on means forgetting.

dear friend, 

it's funny. you're accusing me now? i'm not the one to blame here. i respect your views and your opinions. but how about taking a walk in my shoes first? you don't know how i feel, and even if you do, you probably don't care. what happened to the laughs, the jokes and the smiles. i miss that. i miss us. i miss you.

dear friend, 

does this mean its over? it can't be. i can't even look at you right now without the memories rushing back. i didn't think memories could hurt this much. why do you seem so fine? am i the only one whose hurting?

People change. Things happen. And you're expected to be okay and move on with it. But that's not always the case. How can you forget someone, who gave you so much to remember? I can't do that. I'm not that strong. But you are. Don't let anyone get to you. You're better than that okay? You are one of the strongest people I know. Remember that you have people who love you and would kill to see you smile. You have a great smile, you should wear is more. I'm one of those people by the way. It's important that you realize who your true friends are. Now, I'm not saying things will never be fixed, but I'm saying your better than the thoughts inside your head. Take a second to look back and appreciate the little things in life, and slowly but surly, you'll heal. I'm not promising you this will be easy, but I promise you that you'll never have to face it alone.